*55 - What You Thinking?

Cant believe i stopped blogging for 3 days edi... With the last post of something complicated somemore =.= So wat i did in this 3 days?? Answer is... *Droool~ NOTHING. Yeah u heard me... nothing significant.

Anyway, i had a thought after i saw all those students, in full uniform, going home after class. I wish i had a chance to relive my secondary time. Things were so easy-going back then with full of excitement in life. They way you can see them so happy and full of hope to the world out there. But the fact is, when u enter the society, u'll start to see all kinds of negative and demotivating happenings. All these makes me bored too...
I had a brother which is still in his form 3. Suppose he's facing his PMR this year end. Unfortunately, he's stuck with his DOTA game and even quarrel with our parents for it. How am i suppose to tell him wat i missed in my secondary? How am i suppose to help him learn the life out there? Whats the benefit of acting gangster and addicted in games in 15 years old? I saw no benefit in games from the example of a few that used to be my frens. They're like nomad now and had no direction in life. Some even still spend most of their time in cyber cafe at this age of 22 =.=

I wish tat i could see wat i saw earlier in my life especially in my secondary. Many things we had to start early to reap wat we sow. I wish to teach him the reality of life but he wouldnt listen. I just dont want it to be too late for him to realise the facts in the future.

Now i have deep believe in the potential of each young men. To all youngman out there, fight for wat u dreamed of, explore more of this world, see how great people thinks, u'll benefit a lot more when u're out of school. You all have the advantage of AGE. Think wat u wanna put in ur "time-line" as ur life events. To those so called "older people" :P its never to late to change and start. Excel in Life !!!

*53 - Wolverine Wanna Be?

If you are so crazy about Hugh Jackman's Wolverine action, then u should get urself a pair of those !!!

Tat's damn COOL !!! How much u think he is going to sell tat for?

*51 - No Excuses

Referring to my post *48, relating to "No Excuses".

Saw this great video of Warhawk Matt Scott (A Special Basketball Team Star) in Nike 'No Excuses' Commercial. Must watch to the end ya !!!



Just Do It !!! No excuses !!!

*50 - Something Never Seen Before

Behold~ The Malaysia Sperm Donation/Sampling Manual with nice step by step instructions. Heheheheh...

"Nurse! Air mani saya tertumpah! nak buat macam mana ni??"

From the source, no nurse will fantasies role play for you! Wife are allowed to "assist" but not too sure whether this "service" is extended to "girlfriend or girlfriends".

Source: BoLANliap and its from Lam Wah Ee Hospital, Penang

*49 - FREE Coldplay LIVE album

Fans of Coldplay will be happy to know that the band has compiled a new live album called "Left Right Left Right" and will be distributing it for FREE via their website. All the band wants in return is your email address, the country you live in, as well as your consent to add you to the Coldplay.com mailing list. Sounds like a pretty awesome deal, eh?

I've got mine. 192kbps. Nice songs. I love the crowd in Viva La Vida song !!!
http://www.coldplay.com/lrlrl/

*48 - Breakthrough

The very first official breakthrough of my life.

I went Genting with JS, two barely-known-for-2-days friends and a group of 10+ complete stranger!

I'd never done anything like this b4. If u know me, i never feel comfortable to have an outing, or even get to know new people, somemore its a big group of coursemate from Segi College's Music Department. Its really nice to meet u all.

As usual, at 1st i wanted to reject JS's invitation for this Genting trip. May be u'll feel the same rite, its like so weird being with a new group of people. I dont even like to go out with my coursemate tat i dont have a very good relationship. So, what change me?

Came across 2 articles from persuasive.net after JS invitation, and i decided to make a start for a change. 1st one, one must be comfortable with being uncomfortable. Deliberately place yourself in uncomfortable situations and you’ll begin to grow and be stronger mentally. I really feel VERY uncomfortable at first, but i manage to overcome it. 2nd one is about not using excuses. Im actually looking for excuses to reject the invitation. One of the major reasons you use excuses is because you may sometimes feel uneasy and uncomfortable. But after u go for it, u'll have totally new experiences.

So, what makes u feels uncomfortable? Had u dealt with it?

PS: Photos will be upload after i had collect them ^^

*47 - The 3 Musketeers - Puppies !!!

I got myself a 3 cute little puppies !!! By judging from its size, i think the puppies were juz round 2 months old. Breed wise, i think is a total mixed (u know "chap cheng" in hokkien?) LoL...

Their origin is kinda sad though. I hate to say, some ppl are so heartless. Damn~ A chinese guy threw a big black waste plastic bag at the side of the road near my house, this act already very immoral, who knows few minutes later 2 puppies head come out of the plastic O.o and later only found out there are 3 puppies inside. So pity them.

Let the photos do the talking after this.
1st puppy... this is the fattest !!! lazy fella...
Smile~ Anyway... He always sleeping =.= My youngest brother's gf suppose to take this puppy to her home.
2nd puppy... The active and intelligent looking one...
Its ear is alway standing... kinda like a wolf... and muscular too... My gf's fren is keeping this puppy.
3rd puppy... the Cutie !!! My bro named it Neoneu (the name of our last late hamster) Extremely small size n with a very cute short tail... hehe
A very obedient dog... i made him understand the command "come" edi ... hehe ... he will certainly come to u when u called ^^ We are going to keep him.
The 3 musketeers :)
The 3 puppies at my door... Standing !!!
Time to eat !!!
Eat until overlap each other =.= fighting for food... kinda makes me thinks of my fren, Michelle tat obsess to food :P
The perfect triangle at their plate. After this, they always do this formation when they eat... lol
Drinking water... which makes them pee a lot =.= im tired of washing floors
Must bath them b4 they stink !!! See... free massage n scrub !!!
Cutie Neoneu after bath... Seems like he's smiling to something...
Neoneu and the intelligent wolf... LOL... u know wat ... the intelligent one kinda looks like Boltz minus the black fur...
HOR !!! See wat i caught them doing ??? its 18sx... before he look at me, they were doing.....
THIS !!! Oh god...

Cute leh?? So nice to hav puppies at home !!!

*46 - When LOVE STORY meets VIVA LA VIDA

This is the best version of both the song by taylor swift and coldplay i've heard before! Got it from my younger brother's friend's blog page ^^

Please wait a while for it to load, its 100% worth the wait. And you seriously needs a good earphone or an external speaker for the FULL experience!



Best huh? I'd been listening to it whole day :P

*45 - 1st Anniversary for Selenelion

Its 45th post and 1st anniversary for my blog Selenelion.

I started this blog in 13th May 2008. Its been a year and many things happened back then. A lot had changed.

After 1 year in the dark, y not change the theme to a brighter one this year? In fact, flashy colours may induce good mood ^^

TO this -->

So bear with me a while and i shall reconstruct my blog :) Stay tuned.

*40 - Indifference - The positive side

After i read quite a few of personal development articles, i'd a new perspective to look at the indifference that developed in me (even you). Many things happened over this 2 years and yes, it made me more and more indifferent since i started to learn this word (courtesy of Michelle).

So, what had changed? I started to not to bother about what people thinks of me. In some extreme cases like for annoying person, i may even dont care how he or she feels anymore. Everything sounds so negative huh.

Now, let's say u really dont care wat people think of you, then lets use it to pursue what u really wanted. Set ur goal and aim towards it, dont let what people thinks or say about you slow you down. You want 4.0. Go! Study for ur very best. You want to fight for student rights. Go! Just do what u think is necessary. You want to venture in business. Go! Dont scare what people talks behind you.

There are six who-cares theory that will help u to attain ur goal.
1. Who cares if somemone doesnt like me?
2. Who cares if people think I am not good at something?
3. Who cares if I get embarrassed?
4. Who cares if I miss a shot?
5. Who cares if someone tells me no?
6. Who cares if I make a mistake?

Indifference is never always negative. Use ur indifference in a positive way and it will help you in many aspect. But of course if you are indifferent about your life than no one can help you. Im learning to apply what I read. You? Are you fighting for what you want in future now?

*39 - My O2 Camera Album Cleanup

Everything goes back to 2008's 31st of May. Where its the last time i cleanup my O2's camera album. Let's explore one by one :) Most pics already been forgotten.
20080531. Took in Station One Meru Klang if not mistaken. Was challenging Mika for the impossible. I was like so sure there's 100% no chance the wood stick can all slanting and standing there without falling down. Sometimes impossible does happens. You'll just have to believe. Really.
20081029. Should be sometime around the finals. As usual, study group session at faculty cafe where i took these photos of k17. Frankly its the best and beautiful hostel i'd ever seen. I can say its almost a hotel standard in terms of facilities offered. Gotta leave college soon with my fellow NTY. Check out Michelle's blog on k17.
20081116. Location: G Hotel Penang. Thats should me my 1st few days of having my Dell Studio 15. Its the best lappie i had in my life. Plenty of features and decent specs but it too comes with weight though. Still having fun with my new lappie.
20081220. Should be my 2nd trip to Penang during that holiday. Its a very blur picture of my aunt's house. A very green interior that may fit Kee Kee very well =.= Its a nice apartment with swimming pool though. Anyway, they shifted last few months to a house nearer to Chung Ling High School Butterworth. New house new environment.
20081229. Arrggghh. K17 camp. Cost me a new rear wind screen. No la~ i claimed the contract grass-cutter company. Small stones chipped off from the cutter and BANG, there goes my rear wind screen. That's when i got a chance to hav a new 3M tinted since my last cheapo one already faded.
20090112. New year 2009, im still stuck in the same routine life. Poor mice. Got a few of its photos but i guess i'll upload one only. Saw its organs before, did dissection in anatomy before, but y still need to sacrifice a mice for nothing new. My god~
20090218. The 3 days we exchange our cars. Good old days huh. Notice her car is shaky from 90kmh and above, so i took her car to do wheel balancing, now its nice to drive on the highway, safer too. I remembered the next day, took her car to went for tinted. Its hot, its bad for her and the car, might as well did a good tinting. Nice car with a shaky head on the dashboard :P pretty driver too :)
20090223. Hehehehehe~ i wonder after he saw this will he disembowel me :P My roommate. Went jogging and SOMEHOW too tired and SOMEHOW he slept there =.=
20090310. Bad resolution camera i had. Suppose to take a photo of her spiky hair standing on top of her newly cut "short" hair. As usual, not paying attention to the lectures like they do.
20090327. My gosh~ its 3.27 and y am i taking a photo of Ben instead of celebrating my gf's brithday. Wondering when i took this and wat happened that day. Whatever, dun wanna think about it.
20090427. Chemor small town if not mistaken. 阿贤 from AEC introduced this stall on the tv. Its fried kuey teow with charcoal by a elderly man SITTING on his small little bench. Something cute and something new. But i guess he took his sweet time frying till his kuey teow became too dry, he is sitting ma, relax. Special but not good though.
20090427. A shot of Chemor town near the old trunk road. I always like this, staying beside a mountain, breathing fresh air.
20090428. Familiar right?? Its the view of Penang from Jalan Larut's Royal Hotel. Im still very passionate to go back to my old hometown Penang. The way of life there, style of living, its juz so nice, so comfortable. The best part is from my room window, i can see the mountains and the sea. I really loves that. One thing good about Penang is no matter how developed the state is, u still see green big trees everywhere around the building. U try going up KL tower and have a look on the KL city, u'll see nothing but concrete walls. I wish i can live in Penang later during my life.

The end of my O2 Camera Album. Next cleanup: Unknown

*38 - Sem-break Plans

Oh god~ finally im having my two month sem-break. Been a hell for the last 14 weeks of pharmacology, applied molecular biology (AMB) and immunology which studies seems like a routine chore. Life is so damn meaningless.

So, wat im going to do in this 2 months? Been thinking to plan it since my AMB paper :P

1. Dont think i wanna work in this sem break. Wish to spend more time with my family and especially my brother tat is flying to UK. I WANNA SAVE MONEY! then later can go UK for vacation. with accommodation settled by my bro :P hehehehe...
2. i gotta spend sometime to save my 9327 relationship. It's been months of forlornness. Just hopefully things will be bac to wat it used to be. still i got no direction...

3. needs to rethink facial mask business strategy especially involving high transportation cost. I may need a stockist or somekind like tat. How to do it?
4. found some interesting blogs of personal development. I'll finish it in this 2 months, especially the one about persuasive communication, how u deal with people, how to persuade people, how to influence people, which is crucial in business and social or even my studies. Y not u hav a look too, my favourite www.persuasive.net
5. Oya. Seems like i gotta hav a "new" home. My aim is to use the minimum cost to make my new home a designer yet comfortable home. Its a big challenge though. I know cant get too far without money but i'll try my best. Furniture hunting!
6. Books! Bought so many books without any free time to finish it. Must finish them in this 2 months. Or else it'll be a waste of money right? Books aint cheap and i need extra knowledge!!!

7. Just noticed my wardrobe is a mess. Dont even hav any space to accommodate my college tshirts. I think i'll have to clear it and remove all those old time cloths that i cant wear anymore. I bet my standard six body glove t shirt still inside somewhere =.=

8. Need to resolve the issue on my gf's k850i. Its juz stupid to drag 6 months and still nothing comes bac. I'd decided to giv them time till my next penang trip. Aftertat i'll confront them, complain and report to consumer association and i'll sue the shop for compensation !!! WTF !!! Im too free... come play with me la... bastard!
9. Will be shopping!!! Window shopping of course, no money. Explore new things new design in the market which is inspiring. Must open myself to more ideas. Plus i need to change my shoes and watch. Arrgghh... $$$ again...

I think that's all for now. FOR　NOW i guess. Many things i wanted to do. Just because of time constraint. I'll prefer to make this sem-break as self-development month than a working month. Hope i can follow my own plans :P

*37 - 没有你的日子

没有你的日子，我真的好孤单。我已经失去了方向。我的生活，突然少了陪我一起成长的那一角。最近有什么是我做不出的？我不知道。

我发觉我已不是以前的我了。我改变了生活方式，转移了生活方向，想添点生活的味道，奇怪我还是达不到。你有注意到吗？最近只有朋友与面膜，成为我的动力。我会靠他们撑着，我知道你也不想看到我堕落下去。

非常讨厌那夜深人静的夜晚，因为看着不会响起的电话，会让我心痛的很想哭。一直都有很大的冲动，要打电话给你。但，我变得很胆小，不敢拿起电话，很怕得到那冷冷的回应… 它会让我睡不着觉。可能已有对象让你讲出心里话，让你诉苦，所以没什么跟我讲了… 不如下次，你试试把要告诉他们的先跟我说，好吗？

说好的幸福呢？我会等你回来，给我肯定。单方的主动，会时常因为怕痛而退缩。让我知道你愿不愿意继续跟我抱一抱，好不好？

*35 - Revolution

Wonders is it a good one or a bad one...

Many things changes recently... I miss the old original you... Really... I miss you~
Because of the pain i endure, i unfolded myself to the different perspective of the world...

Food for thought, and my learning outcome:
1. learnt that i cannot afford my future solely because of you
2. learnt that i need a BMW to keep up the pace
3. learnt that i need to fight for what i aimed
4. learnt the fun of simplicity
5. learnt that ppl really treat u different by the way u present urself, especially status
6. learnt that no pain no gain, and it hurts

last but not least, i learnt that everything changes~

*34 - Caffein Withdrawal

Just been through 3 diabolical days... Oh god... I'll never do it again !!! (i think)

Tues night 10/3 - I slept on 7am to catch up on Pharmacology and posted a CRAP blog entry.
Wed night 11/3 - I slept on 5am, finish off my Management.
Thurs night 12/3 - Dinner i had a shot of nescafe. Finish my MGM exam at 10pm. Relax myself till 12am. Continue on my Pharmaco (exam next morning 9am). Had one cup of concentrated Old Town white coffee. and i DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL !!! 7am we went for breakfast in Sri Serdang and there i go, had another shot of nescafe~

I seldom experience insomia from caffeine. I never use coffee to keep myself awake before this. For the sake of Pharmaco, i daringly took 3 shots of caffeine in bout 12 hours. I dont think my body can tolerate that. Certainly i experience stimulation of my central nervous system ^^

The problem came after i finish my pharmacology test. I feel nauseous, headache, irritability, depression and best of all, whole body muscle TWITCHING (i thought i may have sudden insufficient of dopamine which cause Parkinson's). After a while then i started to experience shortness of breathe and TACHYCARDIA !!! What i was thinking was: Am i dying? Everything goes off after i skipped my lunch and went to sleep the whole afternoon.

Later, i was juz joking with NTY that i experienced caffein WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME until now, i found that there's definitely a psychiatric disorder called caffein withdrawal syndrome that there were even researchers to suggest it to be included into the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM). (Lloyd de Vries, 2004)

According to Griffiths, R.R., Juliano, L.M., & Chausmer, A.L.. 2003. Caffeine pharmacology and clinical effects. Principles of Addiction Medicine. 3rd Edition (pp. 193-224):
Signs and symptoms of commonly reported withdrawal symptoms:
1 Headache
2 Fatigue -- (e.g., fatigue, tiredness, lethargy, sluggishness)
3 Sleepiness/drowsiness -- (e.g., sleepy, drowsy, yawning)
4 Difficulty concentrating -- (e.g., muzzy)
5 Work difficulty -- (e.g., decreased motivation for tasks/work)
6 Irritability -- (e.g., irritable, cross, miserable, decreased well-being/contentedness)
7 Depression -- (e.g., depressed mood)
8 Anxiety -- (e.g., anxious, nervous)
9 Flu-like symptoms -- (e.g., nausea/vomiting, muscle aches/stiffness, hot and cold spells, heavy feelings in arms or legs)
10 Impairment in psychomotor, vigilance and cognitive performances

DSM-IV (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition, American Psychiatric Association, 1994) and in ICD-10 (International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems, Tenth Edition, World Health Organization), Caffeine intoxication has long been recognized as a discrete syndrome associated with excessive caffeine use. Caffeinism is an older term that has been used to describe the toxic effects of caffeine resulting from acute or chronic use. Caffeine intoxication is currently defined by a number of symptoms and clinical features that emerge in response to recent consumption of caffeine. Common features of caffeine intoxication include nervousness (anxiety), restlessness, excitement, insomnia, rambling flow of thought and speech, gastrointestinal upset, tremors, tachycardia, diuresis, muscle twitching, periods of inexhaustibility, and psychomotor agitation. In addition, there have been reports of patients with caffeine intoxication having fever, irritability, tremors, sensory disturbances, tachypnea, and headaches. High dose caffeine toxicity is very rarely fatal. However, caffeine can be lethal at very high doses (i.e., 5 –10 g).

And so, my symptoms definitely fits. I definitely has caffeine intoxication with caffein withdrawal syndrome afterthat =.= I will never attempt that again... It feels damn similar to a drug withdrawal syndrome, its so torturing !!! Hope everyone that read this, stop popping caffeine like drugs. In fact, its definitely a DRUG !!!

*33 - Night of Diuresis (PHD)

FYI, PHD = Permanent Head Damage. The content of this post is purely crap that shouldnt be used as reference. Still its written based on evidence.

Had one cup of concentrated old town white coffee at 3am. Wonders how much is the caffeine concentration? Seems like its doing adverse effect on me. Caffeine is a diuretic drug in the Xanthine category. For sure its available over the counter, i can even obtain it in a coffee shop =.=

Referring to its diuretic properties, it does increase my urine flow rate (urine production) as i went to toilet 3 times in just 2.5 hours. It somehow reduce my sodium chloride reabsorption which increase the osmolarity of my tubular fluid. Osmosis will occur in the direction of kidney medulla into the nephron. As a result, higher volume of urine will be produced with side effect of potential dehydration of my cells. It may cause electrolyte imbalance with hypokalemia and hypocalcemia.

According to my pharmacological lectures, to reduce the effect of hypokalemia and hypocalcemia, i should take my coffee with combination of thiazides and K+-sparing diuretics. Thiazide will help in retaining calcium ion by increase my reabsorption of calcium ion from my tubular fluid. K+-sparing diuretic will reduce my pottasium loss. I'll choose triamterene rather than spironolactone for K+-sparing diuretic because it wont inhibit my aldosterone function that further induce water loss.

Besides that, I may need administration of IV fluid to compensate water loss from my coffee intake. But the problem is IV fluid that is isotonic of hypotonic will actually increase my renal blood flow and further increase my glomerular filtration rate. Thus, in order to reverse that effect, i'll have mannitol too, to maintain water balance.

As a conclusion, I better not to take any coffee next time as the consequences is so damn confusing and i need so many drugs to compensate the effect of caffeine. Muahahahahaha~

WTF !!! What am i doing ................ O.o|||

*32 - Last word for MTM

"Well, as I was saying earlier (grrrrrr...), its so surreal that my tenure as a MTM is ending very soon… Its sort of strange to realise that I won’t be called down for meetings and events frequently anymore. Orientation Week and Pembantu Universiti doesn’t seem like a year ago. The day I became Bendahari of MTM doesn’t seem like a year ago (although it really was one year ago)." (Vivian Lee, 2009)

Quite a few times u tried to encourage my participation in all sorts of activities and meetings, i understand that. Yes, our tenure of MTM is going to end soon. Recent meetings and events will be our very last time. Im also aware that i didnt show much commitment in those meetings and events.

The fact is, Im tired. I understand what u said on result isnt everything. But still i'll prioritize my result rather than activities. And of course, above results there will be a lot of other things. I prefer to go home, even staying at college while spend my weekends with family, wife and friends... Do the things i like to do (including sleeping :P) and be happy... Not to say i dont like activities and organising events but just i dont feel like spending so much time till i got no air for my personal life ;)

Im sure next sem i'll be more relax and relief. Things will be slow moving a bit rather rushing to comply the "working culture" of the malay officers. Frankly, i just cant understand and cant accept the fact that they can spend a whole night doing one thing that can be done in one hour or two... For me, i'll opt for the most effective and efficient way and finish it fast. Yes, it will improve each and every members relationship by sticking together to complete a task with all those chit chating by staying awake, but i choose to rest myself. I'll certainly choose to finish it in a few hours and go back to sleep... and therefore u wont be seeing me staying awake whole night to "accompany" everyone. Its a different way of doing work. Nothing personal.

Time flies... cannot deny that every event in MTM does leave a footprint in my life... I'll cherish the moment that we all worked together... And hopefully our friendship will be as solid as diamond even after retiring from MTM, not just a "superficial-official-bro-and-sis" relationship...